and I wanted to love you

And I wanted to love you, I wanted to embrace you and cover you, I wanted to offer protection and catch you when you fell, I wanted to be your light, your inspiration, your reason for breathing, I wanted all of you not just part of you, that complete devotion, maybe I was selfish in thinking I could have that but shit that didn't stop me from trying, I just wanted number one status right after God and then everything else, it was childish for me to ever believe that you would... rank me even close to that, it was silly to believe that you could even imagine a love like mine as most couldn't visualize such a scene in their wildest thoughts and I know I am amazing and I know I tried my best, I just wanted to love you in all ways for always, I wanted to be someone you weren't afraid of being with, someone you weren't scared to tell people about, someone you could be proud of, that type of soul mate flame relationship that has no ending and no beginning, I wanted to be your sky that you looked upon, the sun you required for warmth, the water that quenched your thirst, I wanted to be the fire in your heart, set you ablaze in ways that only the deepest connection of love would allow, I wanted to merge with you in ways that melted the both of us into something new- I just wanted complete devotion, I wanted a rapture of emotions, to devour you from head to toe and blend into one another until there was no more of each one of us - a complete transformation that would lead us both into into unchartered territory, I mean what's a life without love, what good is having it all and having no one one to share it with, fear leads us into places Faith would never allow - a life filled with love lets us know just how worth it - it is to let someone in. ~Will "Story" Rivera

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