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She was like a fallen angel here on earth, it was like heaven was granting me a miracle, I was still so new to dating woman and her beauty was unspeakable, eyes deep like the best selling mystery novel, a heart that could warm the coldest soul, when she smiled life itself seemed to be more vivid and clear, like all the bad things that ever happened to you were washed away in her presence and she had no clue of the beauty she possessed which made it even more humbling to be near her, like a saint she had innocence, and she liked me of all the people in the world, God it felt epic, I never dreamed she would be interested in another woman, up until our kiss we were just kindred spirits made up past history, long talks, laughter and so many stories created together, our visits secret which made every moment precious, meaningful, I prayed daily in hopes it would last scared to say the wrong word for fear my love would scare her, back then communication was so hard for me and fear pretty much made my decisions, we were never officially together yet I knew I loved her, but life has its way of happening, never knowing if we were coming or going, our paths became a blur and somewhere along the way heaven showed me bittersweet cruelty because being gay was unacceptable, still very much taboo and she was too afraid to lose her family tho I would have never asked her to, heaven was filled jokes and she was my first real heart break- and I allowed my feelings to remain for years, I stood back and watched her move on and pretend to be happy with a man always wondering if things would had been different had I mustered up the courage to tell her how I truly felt. ~Will "Story" Rivera
Fight for me - not because I deserve it but because I need to see that you will walk through the flames and your choices will not be swayed by my mistakes, I need to know that the first sign of turbulence won't make you change course and that you have just as much courage and loyalty as I carry within my own heart, fight for me, not because I need you to prove some form of egocentric heroism, but rather that you view our relationship as something where endings are just not even an option and when push comes to shove you won't jump ship and abandon, I need to know I can be vulnerable without judgment, I need to be able to reveal weakness without being dominated, I want to count on you even when I cannot count on my own self...Fight for me, fight for me because you believe with out me life will cease to exist and in your mind I am the air in which you breathe and the bond between us is something that is built on unconditional, fight for me, when I push you away and my pride and ego speaks of words I will regret and my actions reflect a soul so independent that I couldn't possibly need you...but I do, so fight for me - forget all things I put you through in the past all the immature and impatient gestures, the jealousy, forget about where my pain and bitterness has lead me too, forgive my impatient self I did not know better, all the suffering and sadness just forget the fact the I ever even hurt you in the first place, I am not the same soul I was yesterday and I have grown and in that growth I never stopped loving you, I never lost hope, I never doubted you would be my beginning and my end, fight for me like this is the last battle on earth and you keeping me as your partner will save every single last soul, fight for me because what we are is everything you ever dreamed of, fight for me because it is only I who truly accepts you without any conditions, because I am your living diary and when it comes to us there just are not any boundaries we cannot conquer together, because I know deep down I am the answer to your prayers as much as you are the answer to my own, even if it means causing an eruption of change and doing something that is simply just "crazy", I need you to want this as bad I do, I need you to jump without looking even tho the path cannot be seen; an indestructible faith, a pure reflection, an endless flame, a love that could make the whole world jealous, team us. This is what I ask of you. Fight for me. ~Will "Story" Rivera
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AuthorWill "Story" Rivera May the words shared from my soul forever serve to Inspire yours.
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