Wed, Jul 22, 2015

The truth is I don't even know where to start, I'm broken into so many pieces and sizes and shapes, some disappointments and some heartbreaks, I'm just not the same person I was yesterday and every moment that I exhale I am changed, I have doubts and fears and sometimes I can't even  think straight, Im tired and weak and need of unconditional arms to hold me every now and then, I am a mess and I'm not ashamed to admit that, I am proud of who I am, I have these fleeting moments, sometimes I am so insecure and other times when my faith is unwavering, I am deeply strengthened and tender all in the same sentence, I'm jealous and territorial but I know how to love hard, I'm too old for games and too young for retirement yet Im still a child in so any ways, I am still learning, growing, establishing who I am, I may be self conscious about my work, my body, my everything but I'm still amazing, I may be head strong and heroic but I am still a woman, I just want love, real unconditional affection, unquestionable companionship, a compliment, some surety, I'm not here to hide myself or my feelings, I am who I am and those who choose to love me should not be afraid to yell it at the top of the mountains and go through any lengths or challenges for me, I'm a walking contradiction that's made up of so many broke relations and still I refuse to settle, everything I do is with passion and purity, I have so many walls built up inside myself that even I get lost, and still ... I love. ~Will "Story" Rivera