The tide turns - the tide turns and changes sometimes look scary, sometimes the waves are crashing and churning, bringing in new and fresher waters but when your in the middle of one it feels like your choking, like their is no air to breathe and hope to reach the surface, you twist and turn and you get dizzy and you lose sight of the shore, you lose sight of yourself and the fact that you have two arms and two legs and a way to swim through anything that God gives you, regardless of how deep things are, regardless of how far out to sea you've gone, even when the abyss is dark and lonely, you forget just how many times you have gotten through worse things and triumphed, things that at one point looked impossible, but the oceans is never the same twice, each wave can be calm or chaos and still you will swim on, or sail, or float, sometimes you just stand still and you face the sun, regardless the tide turns and turns and it turns - changes are inevitable, it's how you choose to perceive them that will make or break your wave and our lives are never the same twice, that is exactly what makes this moment so important - no matter what your going through, make the most of it, cultivate every ounce of love you have left and you share it with someone, anyone, you reach your arm out and you help them, you dedicate your will to be in service and live beyond the consciousness of just bettering yourself, you gift compassion every chance you get and you never lose your faith or your strength to make it into better waters because where you are here and now is perfect for you, it's perfect to make the most of, it's exactly the right time and the right place to take advantage of this opportunity and with the grace of God you will shine on - one day soon you realize how to flow with currents not against them because you are the captain of your own ship and you always have been. ~Will "Story" Rivera We struggle, we fall, we fight, we hate, we argue, we beat ourselves up, the judgment is clouded, voice unsure, defense mode up, walls built, anger rising, loathing ourselves, pain indescribable, no reason to continue, no hope, no light, we really fucked this up, no turning back now, ego full of pride, sorry is a waste of breath, who in the world would forgive this, disappointment to everyone we meet, but each moment is full of opportunity, full of miracles, no matter how deep the hole we dug ourselves, there is always, always an opportunity to stop, to move forward, head held high, responsibility taken, experience learned from, tears wiped clean, another chance to start fresh, with faith and courage, facing all that we created, thoughts clear, voice confident, bridges mended, love replacing all other emotions, light so bright we light the whole dam sky, mindful of ego, forgiveness given to ourselves and others, appreciation developed, a sense of self and purpose, no more regrets, only a story to tell, a notch under our belts, fuel to take us higher, spirit guiding our path, wings spread wide, a fallen angel revealed; and through all the bullshit, we still made it! Giving up is no longer an option! ~Will "Story" Rivera
Although, obstacles are truly inevitable in all of our lives, they are not without purpose. I believe there is a grand design behind everything that happens and those very obstacles are put in place to be the tools to aid us in our own personal and spiritual conscious evolution. The most important fact to remember when dealing with some of the lowest, darkest, saddest, most hurtful and emotional wreck of a time in our lives, is that we are not free from the pain of a situation, but we are free to transform that painful situation into an opportunity for our growth - should we choose to open our hearts accept it. Difficult roads are only treacherous when we fail to see the opportunity, everything that we experience serves to expand our growth and ultimately align us with who we truly are deep within, thats the greatest of all, to be fully aligned with our true self during every moment of every day. Every time we accept a challenge, we are summoning the courage, faith and the means of overcoming it – all of which dwells within us, we tap into the energy of our highest self, We reach in and tap into the powers of our highest self and serve to remind us that we are NOT helpless, hopeless, and lost. All our strength, all our courage, all our answers lay dormant within us; nothing will be able to us hold us back for too long, choosing to have confidence in ourselves is the key to this process, think of it this way, the more we trust ourselves the less we will perceive anything as an issue or a painful situation - everything that happens to us has potential to transform into some of our greatest opportunities for growth - Giving up is no longer an option! ~Will "Story" Rivera I am not really sure whether there is or is not a Heaven and Hell or God or destination to reach, and honestly I am not sure I even wish to prove or disprove it, what I am certain of are the experiences I have been through in my life, I have learned the only truth that exists is the kind we have experienced, concrete, raw, open and unhidden, whether it was emotional, physical or spiritual in nature, it does us no good arguing and debating over matters we know nothing about, if it doesn't come from experience than why fight tooth and nail over it, why cant we just have our beliefs and allow others to the same freedom, are we that insecure about our Gods or no God that we feel threatened at the first sign of some one thinking differently, that we feel it necessary to convince another soul of how they should live their own lives, we have gotten so caught up in ego and being right that we fall blind to listen, we have become so defensive that we stopped growing and learning, we fail to turn that finger onto ourselves and focus on what we do and say and how we live, we have become walking contradictions to what we hold so dearly, so I am not sure if there is a Heaven or Hell or anything out there, what I do know is that I have seen darkness and light and I have battled my own wicked perversions and illusions that have led me to make some of the most hardest choices in my life, the kind that I would not dare speak about, the lessons that have humbled me and brought me down to my knees, the peaks of happiness that allowed me to experience my own version of Heaven here on earth, I know where the true demon dwells, it has nothing to do with anyone else, I have learned through experience the only devil to point the finger at and learn to make peace with is the one that exists is within my own heart and my own choices, it was those desperate moments that allowed me to learn about how far fear can really take me, it was through those dark places I visited that I learned to take responsibility for myself, to only focus on my behaviors and choices, to humble me to the point that I no longer judge, to teach me love without attachments or conditions, to recognize that we all are engaging in our own perception of hardship and who am I to ever tell someone how to live their lives, who am I to ever allow my pride to rule me, my spirit was born free and I will not allow my ego to place me in a prison, we were born to lead ourselves, to find our own meaning and just be, who am I to take away that freedom of a soul for the sake of my own illusionary safety, I am not afraid of death and I no longer allow fear to rule my judgments, I have seen far worse things within my own mind and heart to ever truly be scared into living life way someone else deems is "right", the healing begins and ends with us folks, if we cannot face ourselves and embrace the light of our own being - than anything and everything others say and do will always have power over our words, choices and emotions. The time has come to no longer be afraid. ~Will "Story" Rivera
The more we hold tight to the belief that circumstances and people are the reason for our suffering, the more we place our power to be happy now into someone else's hands, and this happiness will remain elusive for us until we recognize that we just cannot wait for the people around us or the experiences we are facing to change in order for us to express our true nature; otherwise our state of being is conditional and not constant. We chase material things, we chase for peoples affection and approval, we chase body weight and body figures, we chase money, we chase people to change, we chase justice and politics, we chase and we chase and we chase, sometimes we get lucky and catch what were chasing but that satisfaction just never seems to last, we will always find a reason to chase something else, this deep longing and feeling that something is missing or needed seems to always creep back into our consciousness because we fail to recognize that what we really truly want can only come from within. ~Will "Story" Rivera I know what loss feels like, I know what it feels like to think love was wasted and swim in a sea of regrets and what if's, thinking what we could have done differently, maybe we should have fought harder or had less pride, maybe if we were better people things would never have ended in the first place, I know what it feels like to let someone go when all you ever wanted was to have them with you, to be the better person when everything inside of us is raging, when there is more anger than peace, when there is no hope in going back or moving forward and we stay stuck in this tortured replay of our own vivid memories, and we die inside with buried screams and tears of pain, and we want to take it out on the first situation that comes our way, but still by the grace of god and the fact that we love them more than ourselves we find the courage to release them, even when our hearts and minds disagree.
We know all too well we cannot hold on to something that does not wish to be held on to, so we let go and let god and we curse the whole ride through because their happiness is more important than our own and at the time it feels like we will never experience that kind of love again, it feels like our chest is about to cave in, there is no air, no hope, no light, no reason to want to live our lives anymore, this emptiness that seems to find its way in everything we do and say, we've cried so long our tears are dehydrated, and we internalize everything and pretend to be strong, we put our mask on and walk around like zombies instead of seeing the experience and learning from it we stay stuck wallowing in misery. - Yeah I know what that feels like, I am living proof live does goes on with or with out us, but I can tell you this, there is so much more out there than our emotions lead us on to believe and the day will come for us to love again even if its learning to love ourselves and life truly is beautiful, I learned to use my emotions as the fuel to push me forward, I've learned nothing lasts forever so I make the best of this moment no matter what, I look back with gratitude, the sorrow still exists only I have learned to make peace with it, it has humbled me on this journey but most important I have learned to never give up and to never fear experiencing new experiences and for me thats says a lot; just like caterpillars the moment we feel our lives are truly over is the same moment our lives begin - to all my butterflies - ~Will "Story" Rivera |
AuthorWill "Story" Rivera May the words shared from my soul forever serve to Inspire yours.
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